…Being engaged is an incredible feeling for a guy like me. To quantify the previous statement, let me tell you something about myself.

I am a geek.



Yes it’s true. Also, I’m not a very good geek. I can’t program in any modern programming language beyond VBasic, I have 400 MB of webspace at my fingertips but I can’t install a simple PHP script that will convert an external RSS feed to JavaScript and display it locally at my domain, and in all actuality, aside from my XBox…

I don’t even own a computer…



So as far as geekdom goes, I don’t even excel at that. Still, if I had to have a label, I would take “Geek” without too much fuss.

I was also a geek when I was younger. Hardcore. When I was honest with myself I never believed I would find someone to love and marry before I turned 21. I figured by 35, maybe, I could find someone who would settle for me. I had no self esteem, no confidence. It was only for a brief period during high school that I had a window of oppotunity open wide for me.

I learned to play the guitar. It’s true, I will credit my guitar playing as being the second most important factor in the development of my current relationship. The reason is not because “Chick dig guitars.” (They do, but that’s not the reason) Rather, learning to play the guitar well gave me the confidence to try other things, like talking to girls and not wearing sweatpants to school. So, during that time I met and fell in love with the woman of my dreams. Now that she is firmly in the tank for me and I have no fear of losing her (she has a shiny ring), I am free to regress to my previous nerd-like state. I think she likes me better this way.

The first most important factor in the development of my current relationship is none other than the Good Lord Himself. Without His constant love, support, and forgiveness I would only be a shell of a person today. Playing guitar gave me confidence, but only after I realized that God loved me no matter who I was or what I did. I cling to that every day, every morning as I step out of bed.

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